And the upset I've caused you seems rather a lot greater than the annoyance I felt, and I'm sorry about that.
Thanks, I appreciate that.
I feel like I'm terrible at fandom because I'm unable to predict the effect of my words, and because I'm ridiculously ill-equipped for these situations. It's not just your post, it's the responses and at least one post from another person all being unanimous how right you are to be annoyed and such - it's probably paranoia has me feeling everyone judges me Wrong and Bad for being too critical but you crit me (amongst others) and get cheered, but it feels like that anyway. So either I can conclude that you and everyone else are a bunch of rotten meanies keeping me down or I accept that, at very least, I've made a fundamental misstep along the way. The latter seems rather more likely. I just... don't understand. I mean, literally don't get it, like I don't know the rules of social interaction or something and, not for the first time, it's kind of like I've stumbled into a lacrosse game but I only know hockey. It's not the rowing per se 'cause I got into plenty arguments when I was into hp on account of acting mean and bolshie myself and that wasn't so bad, it's a combined sense of not knowing what I'm doing and I can't deal.
Anyways, it's not your fault, I just wanted to explain. I wish you all good times and happy things in DW fandom 'cos you deserve it, and I'll work on my social skills and finding someplace that's a fit for me.
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Thanks, I appreciate that.
I feel like I'm terrible at fandom because I'm unable to predict the effect of my words, and because I'm ridiculously ill-equipped for these situations. It's not just your post, it's the responses and at least one post from another person all being unanimous how right you are to be annoyed and such - it's probably paranoia has me feeling everyone judges me Wrong and Bad for being too critical but you crit me (amongst others) and get cheered, but it feels like that anyway. So either I can conclude that you and everyone else are a bunch of rotten meanies keeping me down or I accept that, at very least, I've made a fundamental misstep along the way. The latter seems rather more likely. I just... don't understand. I mean, literally don't get it, like I don't know the rules of social interaction or something and, not for the first time, it's kind of like I've stumbled into a lacrosse game but I only know hockey. It's not the rowing per se 'cause I got into plenty arguments when I was into hp on account of acting mean and bolshie myself and that wasn't so bad, it's a combined sense of not knowing what I'm doing and I can't deal.
Anyways, it's not your fault, I just wanted to explain. I wish you all good times and happy things in DW fandom 'cos you deserve it, and I'll work on my social skills and finding someplace that's a fit for me.